i really should stop this nonsense.
the truth is, lately all i want is to not mess things up for myself any further than i already have.
here is what i should have remembered: "because i can't have it" is not a good enough reason to want something, and unavailability is simply a road map you use to get lost.
make sense? no? good. welcome to my brain.
please wash the towels before you leave and make the bed, you slob.