Friday, September 16, 2011


do you ever feel like despite doing everything you feel you should in life, you're still an ugly person underneath it all?

i didn't think so, until something recently where i reacted in such a horrible way that it seemed to make any progress i've made as a person null and void. it's as if the ugly, bitchy, horrible rachel is always just an inch beneath the surface, waiting to break out at any time. how can i feel like any kind of good person when that side of me will come out with so little provocation?

i can't. that's just it.

1 comment:

hannabaorange said...

I don't think you were an ugly person, not now or ever. It's more how you perceived yourself. I used to think I was awful in high school, but now I realise I was only awful because I thought I was. Now, I've just stopped thinking about that sort of thing and just try to be myself, and hope that that's enough. If it's not, then whoever thinks that isn't worth the energy. <3 xox