do you ever feel like despite doing everything you feel you should in life, you're still an ugly person underneath it all?
i didn't think so, until something recently where i reacted in such a horrible way that it seemed to make any progress i've made as a person null and void. it's as if the ugly, bitchy, horrible rachel is always just an inch beneath the surface, waiting to break out at any time. how can i feel like any kind of good person when that side of me will come out with so little provocation?
i can't. that's just it.