i miss my kids. i miss them more every single day.
all i want right now is to go back and work with them again. i know if i get another classroom job, i will love those kids as well. but i want MY kids back. and it's hard to be powerless about it.
i try not to think about having that job again, because the pain and disappointment if/when it doesn't happen, will be so much. but still, i dream about it. i dream about being back at the school with them. sometimes i think about what it would be like to work there when i'm not, quite literally dying. i loved it so much during one of the hardest times in my life. i know i would love it fifty times more now.
i just hope.....i just pray....