Wednesday, July 11, 2012

that thing called waiting....

today i had a conversation that got me started thinking about the concept of waiting. i know you're probably like, "wtf is she on about" but keep reading the wordvomit and it will all make sense. maybe ;)

i work with kids who have autism. my little sister (who is one of my best friends and someone i spent much of my time with) has autism. if you were to ask ANYONE who has a family member or works with autistic kids they would tell you: with autism, there is no waiting. at least, not by choice! autistic kids don't think of the concept the same way we do. they don't understand it the same way we do. going strictly from experience i can tell you, when my little sister "waits" for something or is told she must wait even now at seventeen- she is NOT thrilled to be doing so. she's not seeing the whole situation the way that i am. and that's fine, her brain is wired differently than mine is!

but what about for those of us who DO understand waiting, but just don't want to? maybe you just want everything now because you're used to getting everything so fast. maybe you don't want to wait because you  have the entitled viewpoint of "why should i". regardless of WHY we don't want to wait for things, sometimes it's important that we do! sometimes we won't value something the way we ought to unless we wait for it. sometimes we aren't ready for something and so waiting is the best option.

and sometimes, we just flat-out need to learn discipline and have hard experiences to do so. sucks, right? no. i have been "waiting" to get better from my UC for over a year now. not waiting as in sitting and doing nothing, hoping i get better. waiting as in fighting for SOMETHING to work and waiting to see what finally does. but i have learned SO MUCH this past year and a half "waiting" to get better. in a way i ended up waiting to get a job i really wanted because i honestly wasn't well enough to take it at first, and now that i have it i am so SO happy there and wouldn't trade it for anything. if i hadn't had to wait for this job, would i appreciate it as much? i doubt it.

i just think it's sad...we're so obsessed with fast and quick and instant everything these days...the value of waiting for something is left in the dust. right now i'm reading east of eden and i cannot believe the things people had to endure and have patience with in their everyday LIVES at one point! would some of us these days even survive, heaven forbid not getting everything we wanted RIGHT when we want it?

interesting to ponder. and here's a really great quote from one of my favorite musicians. sometimes musicians are really wacked-out or drugged up but this guy has a point so bear with me and read it ;)

 "In an age that's fast like this, how do you fall in love with somebody? How do you become a master painter? Who sacrifices the time and effort to wait? But I love facing insurmountable odds, because someone's gotta make it. It's like being in the Civil War where they just stand in front of each other. You run at a line of people and they are dropping on your left and right. You can get down on the ground and cry or turn around. Or, you keep going. Someone has to make it. Why shouldn't it be you?"
 -Joshua Homme

he's right :)

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