Sunday, June 17, 2012

i'm the king of the world

that monumental moment when you're on the back of a motorcycle, speeding up a winding hill....raising your arm above your head and shouting "wooohooo!" over and over....

because there was a time when you were so afraid of so many things, you wouldn't even SIT on a motorcycle let alone ride one....

the moment when you go on a walk at dusk, surrounded by dragonflies that are buzzing past your face, their wings reflecting in the last rays of the setting sun....and instead of running back inside, you're admiring how beautiful they are, and how cool it is to see them fly backwards and crisscrossing each other....

that moment when you open your arms and call your two year old nephew over to you, and he literally runs and JUMPS into your arms and gives you a kiss. there was a time when you thought you "hated" kids and that kids hated you...and you love EVERY MINUTE with your niece and nephew, and every minute with the kids you work with at school. and they LOVE YOU. you can see it in their eyes.

i have come a long way.

lately, life is full of these "woohoo!" moments. these moments that i just want to shout "i'm the king of the world!" at the top of my lungs.
and you know what? maybe i have a couple of times. because i am a different woman than i was a mere couple of years ago. i'm not that girl who is crippled by fears and self-doubt, who judges others because I'M miserable. who can't even look at herself in the mirror.

nope. i am rachel effing mardesich. and i am the king of the world.

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